You can find me in the club! If I'm not there.... I'm here.
"Some say that time changes, best friends can become strangers. But I don't want that, no, not for you. If you just stay with me we can make it through. So here we are again, same old argument, now I'm wondering if things will ever change. When will you laugh again, laugh like you did back when we'd make noise til 3 A.M. and the neighbors would complain? All the thing we talk about, you know they stay on my mind. And all the things we laugh about, they'll bring us through it every time. Don't say a word, I know you feel the same. Just give me a sign, say anything, say anything. Please don't walk away, I know you wanna stay. Just give me a sign, say anything, say anything.
-"Say Anything" Good Charlotte
This week's shoutout goes to the graduating seniors. Some of you have been really good friends, and I'm grateful. Others have been confusing, and I'm just confused. But for the other few, you can all just fucking kiss my ass... when you're a jackass to everyone you know, it's hard to get by.
2 Days of Hell left!!!!!!!!
I'm sick of people's shit....
Oh and here's the deal... I might not be going to Avella next year. If you are curious, talk to me and I'll tell you the circumstances. Just become interested in my life and you'll be amazed.
Spend your lazy, endless, crazy days inside my head. You're so selfish, you're not the only one who thinks he's dead. I'm paid to smile, now I'm on trial for what you think I said, but I never said that everything would be ok. And I never said that we live to see another day. Motivate me, I wanna get myself out this bed. Captivate me, I want good thoughts inside of my head. If I fall down, would you come around and pick me right up off the ground?
MY LIFE REALLY, REALLY SUCKS!
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"You Don't See"
This is place where I sit, this is the part where I love you too much. This is as hard as it gets, cuz I'm getting tired of pretending I'm tough. I'm here if you want me, I'm yours, you can hold me. I'm empty and aching, I'm tumbling and breaking. Cuz you don't see me, and you don't need me. And you don't love me the way I wish you would. The way I know you could. I dream a world where you understand that I dream a million sleepless nights. Well I dream of fire when you're touching my hand, but it twists into smoke when I turn on the lights. It's speechless and faded, it's too complicated. Is this how the book ends, nothing but good friends? Cuz you don't see me, and you don't need me. And you don't love me the way I wish you would. This is the place in my heart, this is the place where I'm falling apart. Isn't this just where we met? Is the last chance that I'll ever get? I wish I was lonely, instead of just only crystal and see through, and not enough to you. Cuz you don't see me, and you don't need me. And you don't love me the way I wish you would. Cuz you don't see me. And you don't need me. And you don't love me the way I wish you would. The way I know you could......
The funny thing about life is that is sucks.
"The only person I ever really identified with was Charlie Brown. He was a loser. His own Halloween special wasn't even about him!"
